Sunday, December 25, 2011

13 years ago....

It was on this day,
Dec. 26th, 1998
13 years ago,
that you left us....
Heaven : Heart made from cloud in the blue sky
Who would of thought that
just the day before
(Christmas Day)
would've been our last
Christmas together.

You fought for 2 1/2 years
living with a severe head injury,
and left unable to walk.
I put all my heart and soul
into taking care of you
for those 2 1/2 years...
I prayed like I never prayed before...
But it wasn't enough...
God had other plans.
Didn't he know that you
were only 36 and I was 30?
Didn't he know we had
2 small children, ages 7 1/2 and 9?
What would I do without you!

I remember this day all to well...
As angry as I was at God
for taking you from us...
I knew in my heart that you
didn't want to live this way...
I since then forgave...
and I still pray everyday.

 Somehow, Life went on...
The boy's grew up...
Now ages 22 and 21.
But not a day goes by that we don't
think of you and miss you dearly,
especially this time of year.
Merry Christmas in Heaven, Randy!

In Loving Memory of my Husband
Randy Allen
June 16, 1962---Dec. 26, 1998

Heaven : White ladder extending to a bright sky against a background of green grass. Symbol of the road to heaven

IF TEARS COULD BUILD A STAIRWAY
If tears could build a stairway,
and memories a lane.
I would walk right up to Heaven
and bring you back again.

No farewell words were spoken,
No time to say "Goodbye".
You were gone before I knew it,
and only God knows why.

My heart still aches with sadness,
and secret tears still flow.
What it meant to love you -
No one can ever know.

But now I know you want me
to mourn for you no more;
To remember all the happy times
life still has much in store.

Since you'll never be forgotten,
I pledge to you today~
A hollowed place within my heart
is where you'll always stay.

 

15 comments:

LibbiesHome said...

Sending you a hug, and prayers to heaven.

Angela said...

Such a moving post Sandi, I didn't know. I am sure Randy would be so proud of you for continuing on. I bet he is smiling down upon you and your sons and would be proud of the job you have done with the boys/now young men. Sending hugs and prayers your way on this special day.
Angela

Christine said...

Sandi, I can't begin to tell you how moved I am after reading this...
What a heart you have and I hope you get through today with God's help and presence.
God bless you
Christine

Jean @ Prim Crafts said...

Wonderful tribute Sandi. My heart goes our to you and your sons. Praying God's love surrounds you with peace and happy memories.
Blessings,
Jean

BumbleBeeLane said...

Sandi~ Big Hugs for you sweet friend! Beautiful tribute.Warm Blessings!~Any

Susan At Glen Oaks Primitives said...

Dear Sandi,
I'm sorry, I didn't know that you lost your husband. Christmas must
be especially difficult for you.
Thank you for sharing with us.
God Bless you.

Ellie's Country Accents said...

What a moving story and how you carried on with 2 young sons. Bless you and your family.
Ellie

Pam at Antique or Not said...

Sandi, I am so sorry; I had no idea. Your post moved me to tears...I can't even imagine what you've been through. Your bravery in being able to pick yourself up and be strong for your children through such a difficult time is so commendable. I'm sure your husband is very, very proud of you.

Big hugs to you,
Pam

Karen/My Colonial Home said...

OMGosh Sandi...I'm so sorry...I guess I didn't know this about your family.
What a sweet post.
Bless you dear lady.
Thanks so much for visiting my blog so often. I appreciate it so much.
Hugs,
Karen

Cottonwood Lane Primitives said...

Sandi, I'm so sorry for your loss. I admire your strength in caring for your husband for so long and raising your sons on your own. I hope you felt and continue to feel God's presence through these tough times and have hope that, through God "the worst thing is never the last thing". ~Roberta

Raggedy Creations said...

Oh Sandi. I'm so sorry for your loss all those years ago. What else can i say????

Hugs
Felicia

Tolentreasures said...

Oh, Sandi, I am so sorry for your loss, how hard that had to be carrying on and raising your sons. What a strong and brave woman you are!

Cathy

Trace4J said...

How amazing you are Friend!
You are a inspiration to me.
Sending you a giant hug. So happy we are friends.
Hugs
Trace

www.grannytracescrapsandsquares.com

kpaints said...

What a wonderful post...loved both poems. Randy would be so proud of you and your sons. Christmas is a difficult time of year, I too lost someone...my son, 12 years ago...it will always be tough.

Bless you and yours!

hilary@oldhousetruelove said...

what a special story. bless you.